Thursday, April 27, 2006

Grace, Mercy, Love, Forgiveness, Healing

Have you ever felt absolutely filthy in the sight of God? I have. And just like every other person in this world, I struggle daily with the sin that is the filth that covers my flesh.

I have days where I feel like I'm dragging, and all the thoughts are focused on the doubt of my calling, how I am not "Christian" enough, not Godly enough, to be the leader that God has called me to be, and that my gifts and talents have been made useless by my own weakness and willingness to give in to temptation, anger, and sin. That voice of deceptions tells me, "You're no example. What are you doing up there 'serving the Lord?' You're never going to be good enough." And sometimes I believe it.

But then, there is always some small reminder that puts me back in focus, and gives me the proper perspective.

I sang at church on Sunday, and that morning I was feeling really down on myself. I was wondering how I was going to sing there's only grace, there's only love, there's only mercy, and believe me it's enough with any sort of conviction.

As the music began, I prayed, "Lord, just please help me. Give me peace."

I sang the words, and at the end of the song realized that God had given me a gift through that song, and that those lyrics were speaking to me in that moment, to what was in my heart.

Wow. I didn't expect that.

God never changes. He always forgives. He always shows love, mercy, and grace to us. And that's enough to wash away even the most disgusting filth we could ever get ourselves into. Even if it's for the hundredth time.

Only Grace by Matthew West

There is no guilt here
There is no shame
No pointing fingers
There is no blame
What happened yesterday has disappeared
The dirt has washed away
And now it's clear

There's only grace
There's only love
There's only mercy and believe me it's enough
Your sins are gone
Without a trace
There's nothing left now
There's only grace

You're starting over now
Under the sun
You're stepping forward now
A new life has begun
Your new life has begun

There's only grace
There's only love
There's only mercy and believe me it's enough
Your sins are gone
Without a trace
There's nothing left now
There's only grace

And if you should fall again
Get back up, get back up
Reach out and take my hand
Get back up, get back up
Get back up again

There's only grace
There's only love
There's only mercy and believe me it's enough, it's enough
Your sins are gone
Without a trace
There's nothing left now
There's only grace

There's only mercy and believe me it's enough, it's enough
Your sins are gone
Without a trace
There's nothing left now
There's only grace

so get back up, get back up again
get back up again